So we’re a few weeks into it, how is 2013 treating everyone? For me, it’s shaping up to be a pretty damn good one. I have so much to look forward to.
I’m not usually one for new years resolutions, which is why I never wrote about it. But for some reason as we were ringing in 2013 I felt a change. A clean slate. A door opening to possibilities. An empty glass of champagne. (I kid.)
I’ve had a series of thoughts “clicking” into place. Some may call them epiphanies. I don’t take myself that seriously. What it boils down to is this: Even if I am not able to control a situation, I am always able to control how I respond to it. This is applicable in so many cases – work stress, feeling sick, pangs of jealousy or any unexpected change. I may write more about this in the future but for now I’ll leave it there and let you know that keeping this idea in mind has put so many issues at ease for me.
I’ve also been thinking a lot about what I enjoy doing and who I really am. Oh god this is getting too deep QUICK FUNNY ANIMAL PICTURE
What I’m saying is…you know how at some point in your childhood you make the statement “I love monkeys”, and then until you’re 42 you get a myriad of monkey sculptures, stickers, stationery, etc all due to that one flippant statement because Paul Frank was really big that year (someone please know what that means). And then you realize that you don’t care about monkeys. You’ve never cared about monkeys. You’re drowning in a pit of monkeys. Or maybe you formed a certain opinion about someone (I’m looking at you, Mariah Carey) just because someone you admired (I’m looking at you, best friend from 3rd grade) didn’t like them and that opinion stuck with you until you realize that All I Want For Christmas Is You is the Greatest Song Ever Written.
The point is, you’re not stuck. I’m not stuck. Ways you thought about the world or yourself are fluid. You can throw those monkey pajamas away (just kidding, give them to me). It’s ok to unsubscribe to all those blogs you started following when you wanted to be The Best Blogger Ever and just read the ones that are uplifting and pretty. It’s ok to like things that aren’t cool. It’s TOTALLY ok to not be cynical about everything (or anything).
A lot of this for me has to do with blogging. There were those halcyon days of last summer when I was posting nearly every day. And it was great. It was fun. And then it wasn’t. And then I felt like I had yet another job. So I had to step back a bit and realize what I really wanted out of blogging. I’ll let you in on some secrets: I never totally understood SEO and I don’t care to learn. I haven’t looked at my page views in months. I don’t remember the password to check my Google Analytics. I think all those lists of “10 steps to being a better blogger!!!” are dumb. I’m never going to be a famous or even semi famous blogger, but I’m going to use this fantastic platform as an outlet and a portal. An outlet for all the brain goo that needs to be splattered somewhere (I’m charming, I know) and a portal to new relationships, new connections, and inspiration. I don’t want to blog more, I want to blog better with an eye on expressing myself and connecting to other people, bloggers or not.
So, things I want to do this year with all this extra time that I don’t need to spend worrying how to be cool: take more pictures, meet new friends, talk over coffee, continue learning who I am, stop being scared, ask questions and listen for the answers.